one year anniversary

New Beginnings.
New thoughts.
New Focus.
New Compass.

A year has almost gone by since I last entered my sacred world. Where there is no one but me, my thoughts, my pictures and my inner voice.

I have morphed into a whole new being, although I have yet to truly display her.

I know she is more quiet, thoughtful, discerning. Letting life's drama flow more freely down her back. She loves to be observe more and speak less, although when there is time to speak, she prays there is merit.

I'm surprised to find her here. I had resolved to let this place go, not requiring a public forum ever again to spill out her soul. The surprise is a delight! Some things are not forgotten, just dormant until such time as they can be revealed again in better light.

I spoke once of being more practical, authentic in the story, facts depicting the picture, but have now seen that the beauty is in the fragmented splinters that slice through the sunlight. There is no structure needed. Whatever freely flows down into words is forgiven. What joy that is!

The vision is clearing after such blurred sight. So much needed to die, to be released. The roots went deep and even now I know there is still more to dig out.

But I am grateful. I am learning the grace of thanks and the miracle that follows. It was given to me by a new friend who knew I needed to read about Eucharisteo, Grace-Thanksgiving-Joy. Now my training begins. Each breathe, each moment of struggle, each beautiful-ugly that I see brings me closer to the bliss of gratefulness.

I will practice here. Now. In this place.

*sun streaming through the soft yellow curtains to rest on my prayer plant
*daughter in the next room quietly watching and waiting for inspiration and direction
*favorite lamp silhouetted against the noon light
*quiet house
*loving/caring family who never gives up
*forgiveness
*clear sight
*peace between parents
*friends who see and still care

So much more could be laid humbly down, but for today this will suffice. My own private thanksgiving tree to grow, nurture and live under.

What a blessing!

PC